That moment...

There have been instances in life where I have refused to take that extra effort.. that little step and have lost out on some good, maybe exhilarating experiences.. The ones that come to my mind now are,

- I went to Badrinath, Hrishikesh and Haridwar at the age of 8 accoompanied by my parents and a lot of oldies from the extended family of ours. One day, we were walking this long and rather arduos journey to "Bheeman Pala" - a rock bridge set across the river by apparently Bheema(One of the Pandavas). The myth is that he laid it across to allow his brothers or Draupadi.. I don't exactly remember who had problems crossing the river otherwise. Now after walking about 60%, we decided it was too much to walk and decided to stay back. One of the uncle and his wife went and saw it. Now, to think of it.. I wonder when I will be able to go and see it again..


- Another recent incident was at Golconda fort in Hyderabad. After walking the long path to a dilapidated structure of the fort.. I refused to go in and see the structure! Reason.. I was tired or something like that.. :(. Now, I have quit Hyderabad and am not sure when I will go next and going to Golconda then would be expecting too much...

- During a trip to Haridwar with college mates, the plan was to get up early in the morning and take a "Ganga Snaan". I get up in the morning, feel cold and sleepy and avoid the sojourn. My friends tell me it was a wonderful feeling to be up that early and bathe in the Ganges. Again, when am I going to do that ever....

Now, I won't call the above completely lost opportunities.. there are other things which I would call absolutely irrevocable and cannot ever get back. The above, I may still go down and do them again.. but the question is why did I not?

Now thinking about it, I recollect the above instances. I wonder how many I have missed thus due to that momentary lack of motivation.I shudder to think that I might have lost out on something substantial, something I need because of this...

Is it possible for me to will my mind to do the right thing for me at all times? Does it come via practise? Perhaps it does, and I need to make the effort, a conscious one at that...